I did everything wrong today… except quit.
Let’s not sugarcoat it — I slept like trash last night, tossed, turned, scrolled, and finally popped a Benadryl like a sad little nightcap at 11PM. That meant I didn’t wake up this morning so much as regain consciousness around 8AM, groggy and grumpy. I blew my morning workout window, and from there the day spiraled like a toddler in Target.
But guess what? That little voice — the one that’s been getting louder lately — kept whispering: “Do what’s necessary. Not what’s convenient.”
So yeah, it was dark out, the kid and the dog were done with walkies and weewees, and I still dragged my tired ass to the elliptical for 30 minutes of cardio while grinding through Pimsleur’s Japanese Lesson 12. I now know how to ask how much something costs in Japanese — not that I can afford it after today’s poor life math.
Because yes, the most important math you’ll ever do is calculating the future cost of your current decisions.
🔥 No Motivation, Just Discipline
I had zero motivation today. None. Nada. But guess what carried me through? Discipline. That’s the bridge between goals and accomplishments, and today I damn well crossed it with tired legs and a pissed-off attitude.
See, motivation is cute when it shows up. But discipline? She’s the ride-or-die that still shows up when you feel like a bag of microwaved garbage. Like someone said — most of adulthood is whispering “fck this” while doing it anyway.*
And that’s what I did.
💪 Mental Gains > Muscle Gains (For Now)
I’m not waking up shredded yet. But my face? A little thinner. My confidence? Starting to peek through. Depression? Still lurking, but lately it’s been losing. And no, I’m still not excited to work out — I’m not a psychopath — but I am noticing that little addictive itch starting to form. That quote hit me hard today: “Once you start to see results, the grind of it all becomes addictive.”
I see it now. The grind is gross… but it’s working.
💊 TRT Begins – Let the Science Experiment Commence
I had my doctor’s appointment today and got prescribed gonadotropins and estrogen blockers. We’ll see where that takes me in 90 days. Maybe I’ll be a little less tired. Maybe my body fat will stop acting like it’s on a squatters’ rights crusade. Either way, I’m betting on myself.
🔥 Choose the Pain of Discipline or the Pain of Regret
Tonight’s a perfect example of why discipline > vibes. I could’ve let the day slip, used my lack of sleep as an excuse, and convinced myself I’d “start fresh tomorrow.” But no. I chose the discomfort of doing the thing late over the regret of not doing it at all.
Effort doesn’t lie. And as much as I screwed the schedule today, I didn’t screw me.
You don’t look like your goals — you look like your habits. And tonight, mine looked sweaty, tired, and slightly better than yesterday.
📚 Book Recommendation: “Can’t Hurt Me” by David Gogg—Nah, Just Kidding
Let’s not do the usual suspects. Try “The Comfort Crisis” by Michael Eastern — it’s about voluntarily putting yourself in discomfort to unlock real happiness and resilience. The author literally went into the Arctic tundra to learn how we’ve coddled ourselves into a puddle of soft, anxious mush. Highly relevant for those of us learning to eat the frog — even if it’s late at night.
👊 Closing Thoughts for the Lurkers
Some days will feel like a damn mess. That’s fine. Make the mess, then clean it up. That’s what adults do. That’s what disciplined people do. That’s what you can do.
So if you’re reading this, lurking from the shadows, and waiting for the “right time” — stop. If you won’t start today, you probably won’t start tomorrow either.
Get off the fence and come hang out in the fire with us. Join the challenge at rewiredwithdrew.com or hop into the Discord for accountability, encouragement, and brutal honesty: discord.gg/vTx5AN542g
You’re not too far gone. You’re just one uncomfortable choice away from getting better.
Drew Karriker is a self-proclaimed professional tinkerer, self-experimentation enthusiast, and lifelong learner with an inability to sit still. A former nuclear engineer turned DevOps architect, he’s built a career (and a life) out of breaking things, fixing them, and then making them better.
Despite wrestling with ADHD, anxiety, and an unrelenting need to optimize everything, he transformed his career and life in just a few years—not because he’s special, but because he figured out how to turn obsession into execution. Now, he’s doing it again—publicly—one 100-day challenge at a time.
His past projects? Some were successes. Some flopped spectacularly. Each one left him a little wiser (and probably a little more caffeinated). Now, he’s on a mission to document his transformation—mind, body, career, and everything in between—so that others might pick up a thing or two along the way. Or at the very least, be entertained by the chaos.
Follow along at RewiredWithDrew.com and get inspired, get motivated, or just grab some popcorn and enjoy the ride.